My Own Lockdown Blues

Hey guys, hope you’re all staying safe!
For many of us, 2021 was meant to be a new chapter in our lives, a shining beacon of hope to show that one day we’d be rid of COVID-19 and all the trouble that followed. Sadly however, I’m sure we’re all very much aware of the current situation this year is already in.
Whilst progress is being made in terms of the vaccine, we are still unable to see the light of this ever growing tunnel. With the prioritisation of our most vulnerable being vaccinated first, it will be some time before the vast majority of people under the age of 50 will be able to continue. This means back to lockdown.

With most of the country staying at home, it’s easy to overlook how lockdown can effect us individually. I don’t normally write about mental health so I’ll try and keep it about my own personal experiences, thoughts and feelings during this time, and hope somebody can relate.

At one point or another I’m sure we’ve all come across the feeling of loneliness. Right now, I find this is a very unique experience to be living in. We’re working and coming together as a country but never felt so alone as we have during these lockdown periods. I’ve had the fortune to have family that I can speak with, personally, I find it’s one’s friends that can really lift you up from any dark place. The elderly suffer terribly from Loneliness, whilst there are specific charities in place, I think we should all take care of our communities and show kindness to each other, helping out where we can.

I was planning 2021 to be a good year, making big steps towards changing my career and finding a permanent place to live. I don’t think any of us expected it to be this disastrous. The fear of missing out is very real, and many of us are experiencing it, missing almost two crucial years of our lives, especially the ones in school or university. I worry for the future after being set back so much, and I worry that I’ve missed any real chance of being able to start a new successful career path.

Lockdown anxiety is my biggest issue, constantly thinking about work and money, I’m lucky to have furlough pay right now but I feel like my job is hanging on a knife edge, inches away from being made redundant.
I have a fear that my life isn’t in my own control, that I can’t distinguish which way we’re going until it’s too late to change.
However, I’m determined to stay on track, I’m even taking the time to write blogs again. I don’t know whats going to happen to the rest of the year, but I’m willing to take it head on.

There is nothing wrong with feeling the lockdown blues, it gets us all at one point or another, but its how we come together that pushes us through it. Don’t be afraid to call a friend and tell them you’re struggling, don’t think twice about putting off your dreams just because of COVID and never think that you’re alone.

Whilst the tunnel is long, light is still at the end.
Written Rambles.

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